trigger warning: self harm
I've been feeling compulsive to hit my head repeatedly for a year, almost everyday. I'm trying to not as I can but it hurts more when i don't. And lately, these months i started to get overwhelmed so easily by my surroundings, or little things such as plan changes, even the way i put down the salt to the table. I tense up and feel the need to cover my ears or eyes. It hurts my brain. I'm 16. I'm concerned that I might have given myself a mild brain trauma. I cant ask help from my parents. When I had a breakdown like that in front of my mother because she raised her hand at me, she just mocked me by telling me to keep hitting myself. I dont really think the school counselor could help, I dont even know how to bring that up. I've been feeling hungry for air for at least 6 months and my heart hurts everyday. I'm stuck. All I want is to be able to study and degree at my university exam but I can't even stay still without starting to fidget sharply or hit myself repeatedly