it doesnt even work anymore
it doesn't hurt anymore, it doesn't bleed enough for me, i dont know. maybe its because i dont have a very good tool for it but it used to be good enough for me. now i just keep doing it worse and more often bc its stopped being satisfying. i genuinely dont feel a thing when i do it now. its leading me to look for different tools and that will be bad if i find one.
@mza24 I get where you're coming from. You have to keep on upping the game to get the same level of satisfaction because the shock value wears off- and it will continue to wear off. You've got to remind yourself that you'll never really win with this game because it never truly will be enough. Like, what is the ultimate goal? To get to such an extreme that you pass out? To have to drive yourself to the ER while half-conscious (from personal experience, just no, that was scary as ***, and then covering up the bill was also ***)? Even if self-harm alternatives are lame, you've got to try- put down the sharps. At least try not to do it tonight, because keep reminding yourself- it will NEVER be enough.