Tw my self-harming thoughs
Birchtreebird11
August 12th
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In my head I sometimes become a clone of myself, or a quadruped monster- just to hurt myself. Kick myself to the floor or maul myself. Make sure I'm left on the floor and weak, or bleeding out.
The desire to let go and stop holding back and damage myself until I'm a gorey mess can get overwhelming sometimes. The desire to rip myself apart, the satisfaction I feel it'd bring, the way I want to just *** lose it- why do I feel that way?