Thinking to much
SleepyPersonForever
January 23rd
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I know it's the selfharm tread but TW nonetheless.
It's been so much in my head again. The urge is so so high. So much years without it, but as soon as I feel bad I feel like I stopped yesterday with how strong the urge has been feeling. My minds a mess, I haven't been sleeping and it has been so loud. I know it will shut it up. I also know it'll just come back twice as strong after. But still. Those few moments of peace are starting to look better and better. And that worries me. I'm fighting it. I don't want to start counting at one day clean again. Not after this many years. I fear I might break soon though. I'm just scared I guess.