Sorry
Huge trigger warning: TW/////////////////////////
I was horrible today. I was three weeks clean, maybe more; I was doing so well that I forgot to count how long I was even clean for. Then I cut and I cut and I cut and I cut and I couldn't feel it at all, couldn't feel anything at all, so I carried on and I cut and I cut and I cut and-
why.. why is this bad. i dont even know why its bad. i dont know why it doesnt hurt. i dont know why i of all people do this. i dont know why i feel such a relief when the pain finally kicks in. i dont know why i feel worse when there is no pain. i dont know why that the lack of pain causes me to cut more to try and feel pain. feel something. and i am sorry for this post which is awful and disgusting. anyway. sorry.
@Phoenix1234theythem Sending hugss! 💗💗 im soo sorry you feel this way. But never try to SH, even tho ik its hard to control those urges.. ive been 24 days clean today but yea 2 days ago i got a really bad panic attack and got intense urges but still i tried to control myself :)
but here are some tips that helped me-
1- try snapping a band on your wrist
2-do something fun to distract yourself
3- keep all sharp objects away
4- another thing which has helped me thru all of this is just screaming into a pillow lol. ik its odd but it truly did help me at times
5- dont forget your worth!
6- try talking to a trusted friend..its not like they will give you the solution to the problem but they're truly there and WANT TO BE THERE when you need them..and talking to my friend has given me relief and i feel much better when shes around me :)
I hope you get better soon!! :) xoxo
@venusnebulaa
Aww thank you so much it's so lovely of you to take the time to write this when we don't know each other much, I'll try these thank you again 🥹💗💖
@Phoenix1234theythem im glad i could help a stranger!! xx
