Sun is Setting (Trigger Warning: Blades, mention of Cutting)

Sitting in my bedroom, the sun is setting Not gonna lie, back up plans lookin’ pretty tempting, Grades are a mess, future lookin bleak, Self esteem low, Demeanor weak, Gotta say, I think I finally hit my peak, Actually think I hit that a while ago Cause lately it’s been nothin but low after low Got nothing ahead for me, Things looking gray Half my brain lookin’ for reasons to stay But The other half making me feel like a Big F minus People mistaken my anxiety for shyness People saying need to get along with everybody Why I gotta fit in when I already copy copy others actions, copy others likes copy others opinions, like riding a bike It's hard at first but you get the hang of it eventually The real test is when you go home and pretend exceptionally They say “i like to draw.” you say Let's give it a try They say “the blade numbs all.” you say Let's give it a try You try to copy the smile and kind soul when in reality your minds as dark as a black hole Your parents in disbelief as you try to explain You try to talk it out, try to ease the pain You go to your bed, the mood upsetting Sitting in your bedroom, the Sun is Setting