Not Doing Well
Not doing too well tonight. I’m failing life. My ex don’t care if I died, I’m trying to find a new job. Literally filled out over 100 applications. My kids are mad at me, I’ll be homeless soon…I’ve failed. I’m really trying to push forward but idk what to do. This post could’ve ended up in a few different communities but here I am. 😣😞😔😒😢
@XneedsHelp 🙁 sits beside you and hugs you tightly ❤ I'm so sorry your going through all this😥 but hey! As they say, when you hit rock bottom there's only one way to go and that's up ❤ keep hope alive ok? I'll keep you in my prayers ❤
@Tinywhisper11 I THANK YOU….but I mentioned in another community, I feel like I’m passed rock bottom….passed the bottom of the barrel…I’m under the barrel holding it up filled with rocks..😒. But I sincerely thank u….
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@Tinywhisper11 You have a grown man teary eyed…I am serious. You’re kind of my first friend on here and I thank u so much. I will be spending Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Year and my birthday all alone. I’m so devastated. I have never felt this down before. 
@XneedsHelp aww well I'm honoured to be your friend ❤ my names Lola ❤ being alone for the holidays 🙁 that's heartbreaking I'm so sorry😥 I don't have any family, I live in a carehome, so all the other residents here go home with their kids or grandkids, I'm glad they have family to go to🙂 ❤ but it means I spend the holidays pretty much alone to, except for some staff. It's hard isn't it? You know what I do, I buy myself toys, that way I have fun things to do on xmas day😁❤ I know your not in a position to buy yourself presents. But perhaps, theirs something else you can do on xmas to make your Xmas a bit happier ❤ and of course we have this site, so we're not completely alone🙂 and they have a xmas party room open here on xmas day, santa himself always makes a appearance. I wish I could help you, but I'm always here to listen, and give you hugs 😁❤
@Tinywhisper11 I’m sorry that you’re alone too. But like you said, on this site we aren’t totally alone. And yea, I have no family either. I have one friend but he moved back across state. Right now I live in my ex’s garage and I hear life pass above me. The life that I should be apart of. However, I guess I wasn’t enough and my mistakes were unforgivable to her. Idk. It sucks. And maybe I should buy me a toy or two. A transformer or some legos….
@XneedsHelp I just read through a few of your posts 🙁 there's always hope, your not a failure, and we can get through this together ❤ I'm right here for you, and in your corner rooting for you all the way ❤
@Tinywhisper11 Yea, I do feel like I failed my children, my ex, her children and myself. Btw, my name is Rick. It’s good to meet ya.
@XneedsHelp hi Rick it's nice to meet you too ❤ mistakes are called mistakes for a reason, because it was just a mistake. We all make them, and I believe everyone deserves another chance, or at least be heard out with a open mind ❤ I'm sorry your not getting that chance 🙁 but you never know what's waiting just around the corner ❤ I've never been in a relationship so I'm not great with advice on that, but I can hear in your words how devastated you are 😥 I hope this low point passes quickly, and you get to live a happy life ❤
@Tinywhisper11 When I tried to explain, she thought I was blaming her. I wasn’t! Between helping her through breast cancer and her children which one has severe CP, I put myself to the side. I loved her! That’s what partners do. She is apart of NA, so I thought she would be the first to speak on second chances and mistakes happen. She won’t even hear me out. She left me the same day my daughters’ mother apologizes for her past shenanigans towards me. Idk what to do or think….😒
@XneedsHelp it's a really heartbreak situation😥 it doesn't sound like you failed anyone, your a good person, a good husband and dad. There's not many left like you ❤ I really hope she calls down as sees the love she's gonna throw away. I'm not sure there's anything you can do, but wait and hope. But your not going through this alone anymore, I'm right here ❤