married but in love with someone else?
I have been married to my wonderful husband for 6 years but 4 of those years i spent it cheating on him with a coworker of mine. We connected like no other. We texted all day everyday. We became very close and i fell in love with him. However, there are a few problems. I am a married woman and he is also married with 2 young kids. My husband found out about the affair a little over a month ago. I ended the relationship with the other guy and i even left my job so that i wouldnt be tempted to go back. The last few weeks have been very hard for me and my husband. He has been very supportive even though i know he is hurting tremedously. I constantly think about the other man, I sometimes even have dreams about him. I wake up with shortness of breath and with my chest hurting me. I want to continue my marriage but right now its so hard to see the light at the end of this dark tunnel. Has anyone else been through this? Please give me advice on how to cope with the loss and how i can love my husband again.