Social anxiety?
I’m really a bit stumped with this issue I have. I am totally free to be myself and feel confident at work, in new situations,anything really except when someone I love is Involved or even present. I can be confident and loving person to people at work. They describe me as outgoing, inviting, loving, etc. but then I go home or hang out with friends and I’m a total timid mouse. I’m paralyzed by my anxiety that I might disappoint or be looked at as not being responsible or that I’ll do something wrong or something. I’m not really even sure.. I can’t hardly even get up and use the bathroom if I need to. I’m darn near in my 30’s and I feel like I've gone backwards emotionally amd socially with my close relations. I was Wondering if maybe others have experienced something similar? I thought social anxiety might describe it, but It just seems so backward to me.
thank you!
I also have social anxiety and find it worse around certain situations than others. I find that romantic interests contain a more intense feeling of being vulnerable, like what if I reveal my deep feelings for them too much and they make fun of me or reject me or I come on really strong and seem ridiculous. I think I feel more personally vulnerable in a way that work might not, where things are just kind of more "dry" focused on finishing tasks and assignments.
Thank you for your response! I can understand what your saying. Work is more task oriented and you have a routine, don’t really have to connect as deeply with your coworkers. But your friends and family know the depths of who you are( good and bad) and sometimes trying to better yourself can be scary because “ what if I mess up, they’ll be able to tell when I’m upset.” And personally I see all of my faults like giant flashing neon signs. I look forward to the day when I can just be myself and be open and honest with people who love me and I love.
Thank you for making me feel like I’m not alone! That helps more than you know.