Where Intimacy Dies
ArtemisElf
December 29th, 2020
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I think I'm broken.
I caught my husband cheating on me on Easter this year. It was absolutely devastating. Made worse by him saying he was never going to tell me. And that it had gone on for over 2 years of our less than 5 years of marriage at the time.
Now he complains that I am not physically affectionate. I dont feel like I can be...with anyone. I cant even be physically affectionate with myself. I dont think I can even feel anything at all. It has just been getting worse.
But this seems to be where intimacy dies. Intimacy with myself. With my husband. With anyone. This horrible broken place of numb nothingness.
I dont think just my trust was shattered...I think I was shattered. What can I do? I feel so dead inside.