Shame and confusion
I don't know what's wrong with me. I have had sex with more men in a year than some people do ever. I'm so shameful. I feel like a slut. I've been called one and also compared to a prostitute by my ex boyfriend. He tells me I'm basically one except I do it for free but eventually I might get desperate enough I'll become one. But the thing is, i don't know why I sleep with anyone at all. I mean my ex boyfriend, well, i loved him. But all the other guys, I have no idea. I liked to blame it on alcohol because most times i would refuse to do it unless they gave me alcohol but that doesn't complete the answer. I go through phases where I'm so desperate (for what though? I still don't know) that I will put myself in very dangerous situations for sex. But I usually hate doing it but I can't stop myself. Anyways, if anyone has any input on where this might be coming from or how to control it helpful comments are always appreciated! Thanks. Shame and confusion have consumed my mind over this issue.