why am i so distant?
hello.
i recently realized that i am not that much of a warm-blooded person. i love my friends, but i can never keep contact with them. most of the time, i feel that i don't even belong with my friends that i deem close (even though we do not know a lot about each other). i feel like this with my romantic existence as well. i have not properly felt romantic attraction towards anyone and it feels like my life is a one-person show. i am not even sure I would keep contact with my family if I went away -not because i detest them; I love them very much. I am not good to make small talk to, and I barely initiate and can carry on surface-level conversations. why in the world am i like this? i sometimes feel like a robot incapable of feeling love towards other people.