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@someoneidk468

I'm really sorry you're feeling this way. It's clear that you're going through a heavy emotional time, and those feelings of exhaustion, loneliness, and uncertainty can be overwhelming. Sometimes, it feels like the weight of everything only gets heavier as we grow older, and seeing the harsh realities of life can make it even harder. You're not alone in feeling this, and it's okay to feel tired. Life can sometimes be confusing and relentless, and those moments of feeling like you're losing people or not being "good enough" can be deeply painful.

Rest can seem impossible when your mind is racing or when everything feels like it's spiraling. But sometimes, acknowledging the weight of it all can be a step toward releasing just a little bit of that pressure. You're asking the right questions, though. It might not be the end, but maybe a transition—a hard, painful one—that’s making everything feel so intense. Reaching out, even when it's hard, or finding small moments to just breathe, can help you feel a little less alone.

If you need to talk more, I'm here to listen. ❤️🌷☺️

@someoneidk468 

If it makes you feel better, I am going to tell u my story. 

I am married for 20 years. My spouse does not want to spend time with me. But I have a ton of friends. Yet I am not sure who is truly a friend or not. I have heard people say the following about me : 

1. I have unlimited energy. 

2. I am always welcoming and warm. 

3. I am always juggling and successfully working on 4 different things minimum at any given time. 

4. My spouse is lucky to have me as much as one other and we are a power couple. 

5. We are made for each other. 

When I hear any or all of the above, I simply smile and move on. Coz deep inside I know I am none of those and nothing is true about me. We both have successfully faked it all for the benefit of our kids. 

But now I want to rest. I dont know how. I want to say No, I dont know how. I want to run away from all this and be to myself and I dont know how. I dont have parent suport nor do I have children support. 

Trust me you are not alone. I am longing to talk to some one. All I asked from my spouse was to talk to me for exactly 10 minutes a day consistently and that was outright denied in the name of culture. 

I only see things getting worse in my life and no better. I am lost and not sure what to do. In my world, you are considered better off if you even die than divorce. So that shuts off that path too. I am struggling and I am not sure what to do either. I want to talk my heart and mind to some one but there is no one.FYI : I have over 500 followers on *** and over 800 fb friends. :-( 

This is life. I just think there was a purpose for my life and until that is fulfilled, I have to live.  So I have to make it better. I dont know how. But there is some purpose to my life which I have to figure out and move on. There is love. Some day you will find true love and That is the same for every being in this world. Stay positive. Imagine yourself getting a tight hug from me. There is point to ur life. There is meaning to ur life. 

Hugs 

@someoneidk468

its not just you, here for u <3