Feeling undeserving
I’ve been thinking about things from my childhood, I have a specific memory of my mom surprising me with a robot toy. I remember feeling sad like I didn’t deserve it. I was bought toys and don’t remember feeling that way any other time. No other context I can think of besides I did feel I loved a lot as a kid. My parents weren’t around or engaged much.
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My partner and I were talking, she thinks I don’t value nicer things that cost money as much because of this. But I wasn’t sure. I know I’ve had a scarcity mindset growing up
@Tommy1971
i feel undeserving to anything I get feel like need to give back because don’t deserve and don’t need and feel guilty someone waste there time money thought on me ☹️
is a trauma thing I guess my therapist told me that when raise to believe not worth the energy is hard believe deserve anything at all