26 and struggling with relationships
I’ve been pinging on and off this app for a while now. Mainly because when I try and think about how I feel with relationships it’s too confusing and stressful so I choose to just ignore it completely.
I’ve never been in a relationship, I’ve never even made it past date no.1. I don’t know if I self sabotage or if there’s something genuinely wrong with me. 10% of the time I think having a relationship would be nice. But 90% of the time I’m not interested at all. I don’t know where I stand with myself. I want to want to be romantic. I want to want to be in a relationship. Life would be easier if I was. But when I think about relationships it’s something I can never picture me having.
Ive spent 10 years feeling this way. Like I said, most of the time I just ignore it. But the problem is becoming more difficult to avoid with each year I get older. I’ve thought about speaking to a professional therapist but I also feel like my problem doesn't qualify for that. Id just be wasting their time and stealing them from someone who actually needed help with their mental health.
I guess I’m just looking to see if anyone else feels this way. So at least I don’t have to feel like I’m all alone.