Friendships
Friendships is precious
A bond that was unbreakable.
People who brings joy and teaches you a lot of fun and memorable experiences.
I used to think friendship is beautiful and it should be perfect.
I was idealistic and that mindset at some point made me suffered.
You're growing older and getting mature.
Your friends are growing older and getting mature.
Teenage friendships are the most epic yet tragic. Perharps let's blame the youth or ourselves because we are so young to understand the reality.
Hurting each other and having fun together.
Some would leave for a reason and someone would turn their backs at you for no reason at all.
"That's okey." That's the first thing i said to myself when a years passed by and i was together with my new friends whom i was grateful for because they are wonderful people.
But sometimes i would still remember my former friends who tried to helped me but i failed them. I couldn't forever blame my mental illnessesor my immature attitude that led to those painful ending.
It all started with simple conversation and ends up with bitter miscommunications.
We all had forgave each other and that's the last time i've talked to them.
Sometimes i wished we did not have end up our connections with sorry and sorrow.
I saw one of them again and i want to say hi but they aren't looking into my eyes even though they are infront of me.
I don't know how to react so i didn't say anything. It was really bitter but i guess, i'll never gonna see that person again since they will be living abroad.
Sometimes i want to scold my younger self for hurting them, maybe if i listened to them carefully that day, maybe even if we're longer friends we can still smile at each other or i can atleast say hi without embarassing myself.
I will always remember them and remind myself to never hurt anyone again. So i began to cherish the people in my life right now. Listen and heal myself without damaging other people.
I am grateful i had met them and if there is parallel universe, i hope my other self would spare some minutes to listen to them carefully and make a better ending for all of us.