Can't find hope

Hey!, im pretty sure you are not pathetic!, for real!:) you shouldnt feel tht you suck at your job and something! Smile❤ and dont worry you are not the only one:o! im shy too even im afraid to people for my past, but yeah:/ well here you can meet people tht will care of you and maybe your way to think or idk the way you see life will change:) and it will get better!

I feel I have no one to turn to. I sure as hell can't talk to my friends or family because I will come across as creepy or the complete pathetic loser I am. I have tried everything to find love, no one wants to be with scum like me, they can see the scarlet V on me. I wish I was never born, I think I'm here to be the clown everyone kicks around.

Stop thinking like that please:(! you are Alive for one reason!❤ okey? look Love? well how can you exoect someone to love you when you dont even love yourself? thats what a Listener told me once and guess what? is so freaking true! i was well im a depressing girl, i hd suicide thoughs too but i know one thing, you are special:) bsides you are not a clown:(, be patient, i know its hard!(: but pleasee be patient and smile! cause "everything uts gonna be alright" and you are not the only one who cry at night" i do tht every sngle night! but yeah! if you change your mind, you change your world❤

Stop thinking like that please:(! you are Alive for one reason!❤ okey? look Love? well how can you exoect someone to love you when you dont even love yourself? thats what a Listener told me once and guess what? is so freaking true! i was well im a depressing girl, i hd suicide thoughs too but i know one thing, you are special:) bsides you are not a clown:(, be patient, i know its hard!(: but pleasee be patient and smile! cause "everything uts gonna be alright" and you are not the only one who cry at night" i do tht every sngle night! but yeah! if you change your mind, you change your world❤

I'd like to know what that reason is (that's positive for me). The loneliness and pain of celibacy and never having had love triggers with almost every single thing I see. I just want someone to be there for me now otherwise I see no reason to live.

Well, i'm a member so we can't message:( but i don't care! if you need to talk im here❤ cause i sweaar! i care about you! okey? start thinking positive!:* i know you won't believe it but I care!:)