Recently filed for divorce/lonely and miss laughing
Hey all. So, I'm pretty new to all this, and I'm not really sure exactly how to start, so I'm just going to put it out there.
I have recently filed for divorce from a very manipulative, hurtful man. He is continuing to contact me, to talk about all his growth and how he is fixing himself for me, but I honestly can't even begin to think about a relationshiop with him. I am so overly done, it isn't even funny.
I'm also the dietary director at an assisted living facility, so I work full time in a position where, I mostly fullfill others needs. I also work on my parents goat farm, where I spend most my free time fullfilling animals needs.
I love my life, I am secure in my descision, and I am doing quite well emotionally, although still on a rollercoaster somewhat. I am just so freaking lonely right now!
Honestly, I jsut want someone to chat with. not in a romantic way, not trying to build something, not trying to fix something, just someone who might have a similar experience that can help me think through some of the sh*t, and maybe also talk about anything else in the world! I miss having fun and laughing at silly things. I miss writing and reading poetry with friends. I miss having connections!
Does anyone else out there know this feeling? Anybody maybe want to chat about life in a way that both recognized the tragedy and the beauty?
@Noyzecat oh, i feel ya.... you sound like you've just written my story. I am so lacking in company. I've friends, they are great but they are married, busy, have kids etc etc..... However, I am not looking for a relationship at the minute as I need to spend time fixing me and making me the best independant me so I can be great for someone else and know my boundries from day one. I just miss laughing. (although I did catch myself genuinly giggling the other day, couldn't believe that sound came out of me...was thrilled) You are certainly not alone, I am trying to figure out how all us fab people can connect, maybe even a thread through this site??? let off a rant, have a joke :) your doing fantastic, you are not alone, you will get there (words are for me also..... )
@kitty54 Thank you for reminding me I'm not alone. It's hard to start over, and it's so important to laugh and live and love again! We can do these things, just not alone.
@kitty54 I don't know a lot about this site, do you know anything about setting up threads? It would be really cool to set up a more direct chat!
@Noyzecat, hi, I'm not sure. I think you just go to the most appropriate community and start a new thread. But direct chats, I'm unsure if this can be done. I know, even direct messaging could work but I suppose with privacy and others possibly taking advantage, they don't give the option.
@Noyzecat
I totally get where you are coming from. Most of my friends are settled and i found myself going back to dating (online) out of a desperation for company.
After my separation, i really miss having company, and the crazy thing is it wasn't even good company I had before the final break! I also find it hard when I am feeling a bit down to be social, even though I am lonely too. I feel like people close to me want to talk about the legal stuff, the house, it's almost like it feeds the stress.
I wish in a way I could meet all new people and just be living a different life.
@frankNest6700 I'm sorry it's taken me so long to read this. I think I kinda disappeared for awhile. Your words speak almost directly to my experience, and it helps me not feel so alone today. Thank you.
I still don't know what to do, but I gotta just keep putting one foot in front of the other you know.
@Noyzecat. I too am going through same heartbreak. It's awful and I feel lost and lonely. I am trying to stay busy but I just cant shake that sick feeling. He seems to be fine and now we r not communicating at all...which i know is best....it just hurts soo much. Most of my friends r married with families and r very busy. It's just the worst feeling...i know it will eventually get batter... but it's just painful.
Have u had one of those days ? If u want to talk I am here. 😇