No More Contact (For Awhile)
After attempts to reforge something even though we were broken up earlier this year I feel heartbroken all over again. I admitted I liked him and it was like we were seeing each other again, we even kissed and slept together. But after some nights ago we talked on the phone and he said he didn't want to lead me on even though he tried. I stupidly called him last night but he said that I need to stay away from him for my benefit, until we can try being friends. But knowing me I'll probably still feel for him and will probably have stupid hope that we could be together again. I feel so lost, like all happiness is gone, like there's no motivation to get me out of bed each morning. Dealing with depression and anxiety is enough, I don't want this pain.