Newly separated, divorce in the works, life is a mess
It seems like ever since the beginning of the year my whole life has been a nightmare. First 2 weeks off no pay from work and I'm not a rich man. Then come covid and my job fires me because I never got doctor's excuse. I am battling suboxone addiction as well, now I'm stuck working part time at chicken house that makes me sad just thinking about it. My wife left me 5 days ago and hasn't said a word, I was kicked out of her family rental since I couldn't pay rent. She hasn't checked on me once, I provided every other day of the year and she sees me struggling and leaves meaning she has been using me for the past 5 years. I'm so stupid, I don't wanna be a fuck up, I don't understand what I'm doing so wrong...someone, anyone please help me....
@Cazster2044
Hello dearest,
I am so sorry to see that you have hit "rock bottom." No one deserves it and definitely not you - I want to remind you that you have lived to write this message and this is promising indeed. This means it is not the end - I know it seems like you will never make it out of this dark hole and it all seems too much to handle but I need you to know things get better, life gets better, and you yourself will pull yourself out of this rock bottom. What you must do however is work on progression, a millimetre at a time — you cannot be expected to bring this all back up to the top in just a night. We need to tackle this step by step. All the most beautiful things and the dearest things were never formed over night - like the night creeps into the day - it takes a string of moments carefully pieced together for the day that comes to light in the morning, like this, you too must slowly, carefully and gently piece a string of moments to overcome all the struggles you have listed - and you will.
Please focus on the first step, conquer that and then focus on the next step, conquer that and slowly you will get into a habit of conquering and triumphing and you will get yourself completely back and better than before, this I can assure you; know the most difficult stage is the start!
So here you are at the beginning of the next stage of your beautiful life to be - good luck dearest, and I believe in you very much, stay strong:
Oh and one more thing - watch very carefully who will be there for you in the darkest moments of your life - these are the only people worth keeping when you climb to the top - very soon.
Sending love <3
Thank you, it's been so long since somebody has just been....nice....especially the last paragraph, I needed to hear that, thank you so much, seriously
@Cazster2044
Always here - should you want to talk - you are not alone - and you know you are going to be just fine because you were never a quitter - and you won't start now. Do share your progress on this thread - I can't wait to listen!
How was today for you?
@Cazster2044 First and foremost You are NOT stupid so let’s not even go there. You are asking for help and reaching out it is the smartest thing you can do. Continue to do this as you rise from this point reach out to people you know you can trust and try to not give up on yourself. This is a low point for you right now, this too shall pass and only look forward this job is temporary it is getting you by while you search out new opportunities. You’ve got this!