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reservedMango5210
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Spiraling
Relationship Stress / by reservedMango5210
Last post
 November 3rd, 2022
...See more Hi Friends im trying to hold things together today but I’m spiraling. At the beginning of the year I was totally blindsided as my boyfriend of 9 years asked for a break. A month after that we tried therapy but it did not help our situation. He has slowly started since about a month ago stopped responding to me altogether and just was on *** and saw that he blocked me on there today 😔I’m so overwhelmingly sad and I don’t know how we ended up here. But every time I try to be positive or move on I’m consumed with thoughts of what I did wrong? Why does he hate me? I know I would depend on him too much for my happiness and self esteem which I know is not ok but it was unintentional. I wish he would’ve just at least stayed my friend after all the time we’ve had together it hurts that he just wants nothing to do with me😞 I’m horrified at life without him in, we barely ever faught and were solid for so long it’s just majorly *** up my brain. I also haven’t been able to see a therapist and have been trying to find one since my insurance changed but I will be going in second week of Nov. I for now am spiraling and not able to sleep I’m so tired of crying over him but I can’t help it. Thank you for listening 💙💙
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Break?
Relationship Stress / by reservedMango5210
Last post
 April 5th
...See more Currently unclear. My boyfriend of 9 years asked for a break about 2 weeks ago I try to stay strong but I’m struggling. The problem currently is because I had been working 7 days a week and we hardly saw each other😞 The reason I’m working so much is because I have a regular job, Monday thru Friday then a caregiver on the weekends. The weekends were normally our time to spend together but I would come back after doing a morning caregiving shift in afternoon which didn’t leave us much time. He had expressed his frustration with this. I had been trying to get extra help to do caregiving on the weekends but I think he had grown impatient with me taking too long to make this change. He wants us to take some time to work on ourselves and I know he is upset with my family also as this is a family friend and he thinks they roped me into this and I let them. I love him so much it hurts I don’t want him to think I took our relationship for granted. The thought of never seeing each other again is killing me inside. I feel like I need to respect his time, he said we could still be friends and talk but that seems impossible right now to me. I have been making improvements this past two weeks I got Sundays covered so I’m only going once on the weekends. I have set some boundaries with my family and have started therapy. I know he can’t see these things but I’m hoping by doing self care and making positive changes that there is a light at the end of this tunnel.😞
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