I woke up thinking my ex gf was there...couldn't sleep, ruined my morning
My Gf broke up with me quite suddenly via text message later in June and it took me by surprise as I didn't feel/see/notice any real warning signs that things were going to end. She was acting just like she always did only a couple days before, saying I love you etc. So I wasn't in the mindset that things were about to shift. We had good chemistry and just clicked. Not sure if I am allowed to say, but our sex life was amazing and made being with her even better. She was very adventerous and a little intense in that situation but I didn't mind. So after all this I had no reason to see it ending so quickly and for no direct reason. It came off as more of a blame it all on me kind of thing.
when she broke up with me she said that she didn't like it when I would get worked up over certain situations and that made her think that I was similar to her abusive ex (he hurt her way worse, physically etc.). This made me feel terrible and I imediately took all of the blame on myself for the entire breakup. It has got me in a mindset that I just cannot shake.
I am currently seeing a psychologist to help me work on my irritableness and try to get me out of this depressive low spot that all this has put me in. She seemed to go cold, and cut off all contact and deleted every trace of my existence. (P.S. this is someone I have to work with).
I woke up with a weird feeling this morning that she was with me and that I would roll over and see her there. Of course she was not there, but it then got my mind racing a mile a minute with thoughts that I haven't had since she first broke up with me. I have been doing so well and things like this set me back.
I just want to truly be able to get past all of this and be able to just go about my work and day without her precesne affecting me. It cuts into my sleep schedule, and my productivity at work.