I miss her

I always had suspicions that I was bisexual, but I finally met a girl that convinced me completely. She was perfect in the beginning. She herself is completely lesbian. She's 5 years older than me. She has a lot of health issues including MS. She was the perfect partner: sweet, attentive, offered great advice. The only thing I had to complain about is her constantly changing feelings. This is just to give a little background.

I cut her off some time ago because she constantly sent mixed signals. One day she was completely into me, the next she wasn't. We settled as being friends in the long run, but that didn't even suit her. She got a girlfriend. I told her I wanted to still be friends she agreed. Everything was fine. We became best friends.

She started staying with her girlfriend. She sent me a message saying that she can't handle being friends if I'm always going to have romantic feelings for her which is something I NEVER brought up. It was like our whole conversation about remaining friends no longer existed.

I cut her off. Unfriended her on all social media. Haven't talked to her since. But I miss her. I know she was probably toxic all along there's a lot that I don't feel like typing out. But I miss her.....and I don't know how to stop thinking about her.