I feel crazy.

Thank you for talking about your feelings, it’s so important especially in situations like this. I’ve been there and know the feelings you’re going through.

You’ve made a great step by being able to see his behaviours for what they are, you’ve tried communicating and being met with his lack of it is something no one should go through.

Never ever feel embarrassed or stupid about being in this situation because narcissistic people never show it at the start, they even have ways of making you ignore the signals they do show until you feel stuck with them.

From now, pull back emotionally and slowly plan a way to exit safely, know that it doesn’t have to be quick and if the living situation is convenient at the moment, stay until you have a viable way to get support when you do. If you have family close by, try ask if you can stay there for a while.

Eventhough many people may say leave now and don’t look back, in narcissistic situations it doesn’t always allow you to leave immediately. Do this at your own pace but always make sure you never look back!

Wish you all the best and hope you’re able to put yourself first as soon as possible ❤️

@FridaDali85- absolutely know that you are special and deserve to be supported. Narcissists often to not show their true colors at first. Then they manipulate and degrade to coverup poor self worth and esteem. You may feel broke right now but you are taking important first steps. Be really carefully prepared. I researched a lot about leaving a narcissist. Love during those first months and year is under the influence of love hormone!! Take care of yourself and congratulations for reaching out.

I understand what you’re going through. I have the same problem with my girlfriend just straight up not responding at ALL whenever she doesn’t like the topic or just doesn’t feel like it, which has become most of the time lately. I don’t think she’s a narcissist. She’s bipolar and probably something else, but I don’t think she does it to be cruel. With her, I don’t think she is so much trying to hurt me, most of the time, as she is indifferent to whether she hurts me. I’m not entirely sure which is worse.

What I do know is that walking away isn’t easy. In fact, for me it doesn’t even feel possible. It doesn’t matter that I intellectually know it is in most ways the logical thing to do. It wouldn’t matter if a hundred people told me that I’m worthwhile and deserve to be loved or whatever. That wouldn’t change the feeling of being alone; being without her.

We were living together then we had a fight, maybe a month ago, and she left. She didn’t leave the relationship, but she moved out and moved to her freaking mother’s house. (Her mother is an evil psychopath.) We see each other, but everything is so jacked up. She just keeps putting everyone and everything in her life ahead of our relationship, which is super hurtful because I have always done the opposite. And I feel pathetic, waiting for her, letting her break every promise she makes, trying to fix it, but the alternative—being without her—feels impossible.

I know I should leave and I wish I could. I even tried, I just couldn’t do it. Leaving has never been my forte, so I get what you’re feeling. Maybe one day, but it feels like something I would have to really work up to, and it would probably take me a long time and a lot of tries. I also don’t have any close friends, anymore. I used to, before I got into this relationship, but it kind of isolated me. I have also isolated myself. I have had so much DRAMA happen since being in this relationship that I just kind of gave up keeping up the relationships I had left or at least talking about this sort of thing.

Thank you for venting, and for letting me vent back. I don’t have an answer for you, but I get it.