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@understandingChestnut9798

I'm so sorry you're going through that. I've been in a somewhat similar situation. I understand how you can feel like a burden, but try not to feel that way. You can always find that one friend who will listen to you and we're always here as well. You should probably stop talking to his friends, because they seem to have his back and will continue to do so, since they are his friends. I would take a step back, concrete on what makes you happy. Do things with your family and things that make you feel good. I know it's hard right now, but as soon as you start concentrating on yourself, you'll start to realize your worth and what makes you happy. The people you are expressing your feelings to right now aren't making anything better, so I would suggest cutting off all contact with his friends and people who aren't there to actually support and listen to you.

The more you do things that make you happy, the better you will get. I promise you that. It won't happen over night, it if you trying want to be happy, you need to believe it. I hope that helped a little. Don't underestimate yourself, just because of what other people say. People come and go in your life, and that's the sad truth. We all grow for the better!

I am sorry to read about what you are going through. Maybe you should search for articles or videos on these topics: narcissism, smear campaign, emotional abuse and manipulation. You will be surprised at your findings. Your story has much to do with all that. Those articles and videos will provide lots of useful information and guidelines. In the meantime, give your friends time to see the real side of your story and be strong. Take care.