I broke up with an abuser
When my boyfriend and I met he was the perfect man. He was caring, loving.. I couldnt believe it. Felt like a dream! We talked for 10 hours the first time we had a phone call! We had a lot in common, we already imagined a life together.
But soon he changed. He started being offended by small things, calling me liar for no reason, being overly jealous. We had huge fights but then he'd apologise. Fight. Apologise. Fight. Apologise..
I was too coward to face that tornado when he's angry and I got caught once with a lie. Not proud of that but I was scared. So then he had in his hands the proof to doubt me, manipulate me, hurt me.
I loved and cherished him with all my heart. But he broke me down physically and emotionally. My tears never meant anything to him. My pain. Why would love an abuser? I left him three days ago in one of his crazy moments.. But my heart is aching. Why push someone out of love like this? When they gave their all to see you smile.
@Minty33
Im new to this app and I didn't know what to think about it at first, I've only been on here for a couple days. Kind of reading through things, but everything's been pretty numb from you lately. But as soon as I came across your story I knew that there are real people on here people that I could feel the same way I feel. I applaud you for leaving him. I have just recently left mine again like I have before I'm gone back many times. The struggle is real the only people that are abused can understand one another. Thank you for sharing your story. The only thing I know to stay to help is, don't go back. Get help. I'm going to counseling and it seems to be helping a little bit. The also remember it's going to take time to heal it's not only going to happen once. Applied yourself for the baby steps that you're taking in the right direction and keep moving forward Don't Look Behind. I hope to connect with you and I hope you are doing well
