Feeling insecure
I’m feeling insecure after a breakup and still live with my ex. I have been going on dates and having sex on the first date a lot just to get my mind off of my ex and for validation/re-assurance. Then I keep getting more hurt because after that the guys are barely showing interest anymore and it’s only on their terms. I don’t know how to not feel the need to go to other guys during this time. I don’t want to be home around him and I want attention from other guys and to keep myself as busy as possible. I need the close intimacy that comes even before and after even if it only lasts the night with the person.
I completely get you. Is there a possibility for you to stay at a friends place or maybe your parents place?
I assume you want to feel loved, rather with others than yourself, being alone or with your ex sounds the worst to you.
Please know your worth, now it's the time for you to start loving yourself, experience yourself. If you can't stand being with yourself, how can someone else? Start to be the best version of yourself. Try new hobbies, new styles, take photos of yourself (for yourself).
Focus on yourself, it's still good to go out and meet people, but don't let people use you. Treat yourself good 💕
I just don’t see a point I’ve never been happy with myself and I don’t think I ever will be. I always find something wrong and I’m just not a happy person. I wish I could say I want to work at this but I’ve tried and keep failing and haven’t seen the worth of it. The only time I feel good and get out of my head is when I’m having sex. I want to connect with someone too but I can’t stand the rejection when I already feel so low