Don’t know what is going on with me
I can’t stop thinking about him, our relationship. We dated for 3 years. From the day we started dating to the day we broke up I was thinking that he was not the right person for me, because he was not living up to my expectations. But I was not ready to dump him. Instead, I was doing everything for him to dump me. And when he did it I was deeply hurt. Now I just want him back so badly. And when I asked him to give me some time to reflect on things, my behavior, asked him to give me another chance to work things out, he responded that there would be no future for our relationship. He said I was not the one for him. He told me the things I was thinking about him all the time. I guess it was my ego that was hurt. We both messed up a lot, but I want to try to build a good relationship with him. We agreed to meet in a month and I will definitely ask him to come back. But I don’t know if I should keep hope that he will cool down, change his mind and accept me back. I don’t know what is going on inside my head. Can’t even express my thoughts clearly.