What's one thing most people don't know about you?

I spent so much time believing it when I was told how smart I was, how talented I was, I never stopped to decide where or how to put those talents or that intelligence to use. And now I don't have any way to fix it.

I'm never happy..though I pretend that I am to everyone including my best friend and my family

I am calm on the outside but a constant flurrey of emotions, over thinking, and energy on the inside. this has been both a strength and a curse for me. even though I'm 37 I'm no just understanding myself and trying to control this

I hate being disabled so much, I just want to kill my self. But I can't. Why? Because I'm to disabled to do that. It's a never ending circle and I don't know if it will stop. I want off this ride please.

I'm black but I'm usually visually attracted to boys with dark hair and pale skin. With the few exceptions of boys that I like cos of personality.

I didn't even begin to think I was attractive until 8th grade when a boy said in front of group of classmates on the last day few days of school "if you got your hair done and lost the glasses you would be cute"

I'm a Christian that still fears death :(

I actually have thoughts of dying :/

I am actually really sad and depressed sometimes

I hate change.