What's one thing most people don't know about you?

That even the tiniest thing matters to me.. Like a lot *_*

I cant even tell anyone how I really am inside depressed and all not even. My family knows im like this every one thinks im so positive and happy so im just gonna keep it that way

That Im really an uncomfortable introvert behind all the fake confidence. I get exhausted in a crowd from all the pretending.

That I struggle with being okay

That I feel really lovely to be in a new country where I don't feel accepted.

The one thing that people dont know about me is that I was diagnosed as a paranoid schizophreniac. I have severe social anxiety and made myself lose in touch with friends and loved ones. I wake up everyday doing the exact same thing i do every single day which is to play video games to escape reality. My social interaction revolves around people I meet online. I wish I didnt have a mental illness that is so debilitating. I wish i can just be normal like everyone else. :(

That Im so lonely

They dont know I worked too hard to catch up with the world rythm that usually hurt me. Maybe I looked too cool and have no disadvantage, but I'm too vulnerable to live on harsh world. But I keep living on no matter what, I will worked hard and harder then

I've gone into self destruct mode and no one has noticed. It all started a few months ago when I cut my hair really short by myself. I would like to take this opportunity to state that I am only 13, and in no way am I a qualified hairdresser. Then I stopped caring. I stopped hanging out with friends, I stopped doing homework and I just stopped. Stopped feeling. People begun to notice how empty I had become but instead of comforting me they pushed me away. The ones who stuck by either grew to hate me or are my current friends. If I didn't have the last group, I would be dead.

That was 5 months ago. Now, I'm basically the same but I'm trying. Trying to make an effort with friends, trying to get my homework in on time, trying to get going. Trying to feel again. It's working, but I still don't care. As soon as I graduate high school, I'm leaving. Until them, I'm getting my own back by pulling pranks and running secret accounts, which are quite popular with the people in my area. I guess I'm just trying to let all the internalized chaos out. What's the point of conforming to societal norms and standards when I might not be alive next Thursday? If my purpose in life is to cause chaos, then so be it.

That I work hard. I hate that everyone assumes I'm a brat and treats me like it. No, I work hard for everything. Nothing comes naturally and yes I care, so I work for it