Just Want To Love This World

This is a part of song lyric. I listened to this song when I felt so bad about my day, helpless and feeling lost.

Just Want To Love This World

Staying on the sofa, fatigue body, sleepy eyes, messy hair.
But I still desire to be hero in the movie
It felt as if I am at the edge, voices of screaming crows above me, numb.
I don't know how to express my emotions so I bottled up.
No matter where I am (here or there)
I feel alike living dead, soulless
But there is somewhere inside my heart, I still struggling to live
I can't make up for the past
Every times I recall about the trauma
How people judge me and the attitude people show me
The discrimination, bad treatment and rudeness.
I do really want to leave this world
And using this way to show my existence.
But because you said that you are here for me
It gives new hope for me
I know deep inside me, I don't want to leave yet
As a loner, your one phone call
It does help so much
Because of it, I do feel perhaps I was loved too
It gives me a hope to start new
Leaving the trauma, toss it away
Let it go so I can move on
My dull world finally has colors
It is because your one call
I know, I just want to love this world.