Food for soul. [TW]
I will be sharing my writings here, quotes and poems. Some content might talk about Suicide and desth with graphic references. I will mark such posts at the start of posting it, so that any reader doesnt get triggered.
Freedom. Very important in life.
And freedom to express, to express and attain synchronization with the natural born instincts and needs and wants. Sometimes and for some it can't ever be possible, because those wants and needs get rejected by how the world is, so it remains unfulfilled and it is unfortunate and tragic and what is the case for many, if not all.
To have freedom, there needs to be conditions to express yourself, conditions that make it possible to be, rather than to not be. And we want to hold on, hold on to things that give us the right conditions, the perfect conditions to be, to express ourselves, because the world is at a lack for them.
And In the end it's all about fighting to be free and the things that set us free and make us feel free and be whom we want to be, unquestionably and unbounded. It is rare, sometimes always Impossible and always sometimes impossible.
It's weird. It's strange. It's wild. And it's all true.
What seems to be sometimes inst the case and what doesn't seem to be, is. And we are scared of the things we seek sometimes, scared of being them, getting them.
And we are sometimes greater than what we think of ourselves being, greater than what we can see within. Somehow we are afraid to be or see that greatness, that magic. It scares us.
Being good, doing good, it sometimes pushes people away, because to some it's scary, it's scary and strange because it's that beautiful and makes them feel too much.
Or maybe it's just not good enough ? Maybe this world is stranger than we think and can ever possibly be capable of making sense of.
I think there can be possibilities of having control, controlling by letting go of things we want to control, and yet still manage to keep control, even more so if we try to be aggressively in pursuit of something.
This is just in a pure philosophical sense, but in terms to sports, sometimes you can let your opponent have the space instead of getting close to them and affecting their ability to play, because some players aren't able to utilize or are good enough to take advantage of the space, rather they function best when pressured and don't have freedom. So you let them have the freedom and they make mistakes and you end up getting back the control of the game.
In a different sense, we try to control our emotions and urges and believe in suppressing them, instead of allowing them a space to function and be felt organically and naturally. I think it ends up just making us lose control over these things as they end up getting more overwhelming.
So, a healthy society will always promote or prioritize an effective way of release of our natural tendencies and a good way of management of these tendencies and most importantly the management of its consequences after we act on those tendencies.
It's part of a philosophy of trusting yourself, being a friend to yourself and being fine with the advantages you have got and also taking pride in managing the disadvantages.
It's somehow connected to a sporting philosophy in the sense that it share the same essence of the need for freedom and creative expressionism, trusting yourself and enjoying yourself. The philosophy is called Total Football, and is in play in some modern football teams and was mastered by Johan Cruyff, a Dutch footballer and later manager.
Art books give me food for my soul. But I can't stand reading textbooks and writing essays, it's devastating. So I found a good solution to avoid paper work with (Link removed by @River). This gives me the opportunity to devote my free time to reading my favorite books and not have stress.
I think in some ways, people who like us or love us, really see something that's hidden or not there, and it gives a perception that they really don't know us, as much as those who seem to be indifferent.
But, I think they see through, see through the features of deceit or vulnerabilities and connect with who we are, even if it may not seem to be us, but in effect truly is . Even when we may feel we aren't what they see, and the world doesnt.
We become, sometimes the losses we feel the most. Loss of or absence of something, can sometimes make us try to fill that void by giving to others, by feeling others's pain and empathising with them over a loss that touches us the most.
It does seem disjointed how we go on to do things maybe for others as a way to fill that void within us. But it makes sense.
Activists for certain movements are sometimes motivated by a personal loss which is connected to that particular issue, and the sense of injustice or loss they feel pushes them to help those suffering from the same issues which they have empathy towards, and it maybe heals them, maybe by feeling a pain they can relate to, they are trying to give to others what they didn't have for themselves, and somehow find it healing.