Food for soul. [TW]
I will be sharing my writings here, quotes and poems. Some content might talk about Suicide and desth with graphic references. I will mark such posts at the start of posting it, so that any reader doesnt get triggered.
"Be a man". Yeah, right.
If it means being thick headed and pretending you are a machine with no feelings and who is always strong. Then I am going to pass on that.
Fuck it. Theres nothing strong about being a man, all are bloody humans and feel pain similarly. Just pretending and wiring yourself a different way doesnt change the fabric of our very being. It just rejects a Human part of ourselves. That is to cry, scream, feel weak, sad and other emotions. You kabje then se weakness is just you labeling something like breathing as bad, because it's equally essential.
Fuck it. Fuck everything. Rebel. Cry, feel weak. Don't be a man for fucking once. What pride is in it .
I can't be a man and I am proud of it, it makes me more Human, rather than a bloody machine. So much fucking pride in being "strong". Well I am not and don't need to be. Maybe society will find it difficult and it does to accept a certain gender doing things that they feel doesn't fit the norm, but that's ok, this world needs to rebel against whats wrong and there is plenty wrong. Plenty fucking wrong.
We are humans denying ourselves and each others the very right to be humans and living in a world where we aspire to standards of gods, while we can barely allow ourselves to be human. Fuck it.
Rebelde.
Self love.
Do good. Look good, say good, think good and be good. Of course you would like it all and yourself and everything when it's good. But nothing is good all the time, not even ourselves.
In that case self love won't last, maybe. And it's easy to love when things are good. Work on loving the darkness. And to love yourself you have to be ok with what you don't love about yourself and to accept it, to accept and to accept that it's Human and just part of you. And thats also maybe not possible to do all the time, because we aren't perfect and cant always perfectly love ourselves.
So. Don't be good to love yourself, rather accept what you have if you can and understand that you can't be good always, and accept it. Understand and accept.
Understanding and Acceptance promote love.
@Rivelino3
But, maybe that journey will mean trying to escape what you are and change it. It will mean doing the opposite of loving yourself and maybe loving a different version of you, or something you arent truly.
Everyone has a different journey, and one is safe as long as they keep questioning keenly.
I think. I think I need to cry. I need to grieve and feel. And feel things and be Human, or end up seeing it accumulate and turn me into something ugly. I think I will cry. I am crying. I don't like it . I don't want to. But I will. I hope I feel less scared of whom I feel I might become or worry about it. Maybe it will help me feel and become Human and understand myself and accept myself and be kinder to myself.i don't know.but I will cry.
