Food for soul. [TW]

i read somewhere someone saying "just one person is sometimes enough, if they believe in you and love you when no one ever did, it can change your life completely" i had a teacher couple of years back who believed in me more than i ever did and helped me see the potential i have, told me i was gifted with intelligence, i probably was or wasnt but i now believe that i am and thats what matters, that you like whatever you have or are. even the simplest things or acts of kindness can indeed be a catalyst. when it seems to be genuine and not just some throwaway comments like "you are beautiful, you are intelligent" there was also a therapist, i told her i always tried understanding but failed to, how sometimes people liked to be around me, she told me its because i am good looking. now i never believed that i looked good, but her words seemed so genuine that it clicked in my mind and i started believing in what she said and now i like how i look no matter how i may look to anyone, as long as we like ourselves, thats sometimes enough. I think these two things changed my life

you know. i think we never go saving someone unless we know we ourselves will be saved in that process.

whole damn world is one big joke, what seems to be isnt, what doesnt seem to be, is. At least sometimes, or most of the time

Free will. I dont believe in free will except the illusion of it. I believe that the lives we lead have chosen us, poetically of course but in a practical sense as well.
From the moment you are born, what you are and can be is dictated by circumstances you never chose, like the people you are born with, how those people are, the society, the culture. And it all weighs down upon you and what you will ever be. It affects what religion you choose, what you believe in and will end up doing.

We believe we have control, but any control over any choice we have is so miniscule. Like we think we have the choice when we choose one thing or the other, but we fail to see that all our lives we have been affected by things out of our will that kead us to make those choices, so in the end its not us who really choses what we do or become, do we ?

I belive there might be an absoloute truth and it is that there is no absolote truth. Even this statement included.

I like to judge, and I judge people to be neither good nor bad.
It lends me an invaluable tool of understanding and accepting most people. and seeing them as being more than what they do or believe in, and sitll try to give them love if need be so.

I also believe in understanding than punishing, Pnushing and suffering in some ways more than not breeds more of itself and always ends into chaos.
I believe in care, love, acceptance, understanding over anything we judge a man by, no matter what they look like, do or think.

Allowing yourself to be loved is a previlige you offer to others.

We all maybe need love. To love and to be loved.

To have something to diè for and have something that would die for us.

Without it, I think we lose our mind, ourselves.

As long as we believe everything is possible, the possibility of everything being Impossible remains true as well

Emotions, urges and impulses need a release, but so often they are suppressed which turns them something more uglier.

It accumulates and with time it creates an imbalance among everything in our mind.

Of course their release might mean a terrible consequence, but we need to find a way to set them free, because the reason they exist in the first place is because of what we face in life, and so often those things are ugly. So these impulses are nothing but a reaction to them and the natural pathway would be to let them out.

If we successfully find a way to do so, with containable consequences, it will lead to healthier lives.