Funeral
This must be our goodbye
Cause if I don’t leave on my own
I will leave in a body bag.
You kill me mentally, emotionally, and physically
Drain me of all my energy.
I can’t do this anymore
I can’t breathe
When you pressure me to be there.
Be somebody I am not
All because you can’t be okay
With your own self and time.
I want to burn
Maybe that pain would be easier
Than the pain of my heart
As you ignore all my boundaries.
Restrictions and ultimatums in your eyes.
Feel like I’ve been drowning
Suffocating in this relationship
Staying for all the wrong reasons.
Every time I pull away
You apologize
But Sorry is just a word
At this point
Do you even mean it when you apologize?
The urges get more intense
When we are on the phone
You not listening to a thing I say
Like my opinions and wants do not matter.
This needs to be goodbye
Before I die from this disease.
@Hopeful0001 This poem does an amazing job of conveying the emotional strain of being stuck in a relationship that takes more than it gives. The way you describe the suffocating feeling of not being heard, and the frustration with empty apologies, really hits home. It’s a hard but honest piece, and it really resonates.
@azurePond
thank you hugs
@Hopeful0001
I agree with @azurePond's analysis wholeheartedly. The conversational tone of your poem gives life and impact to your words. Every line seethes with intensity and finality and yet the bookend lines "This must be our goodbye" and "This needs to be goodbye" seem to speak of the inner tumult, making the whole piece sound like an attempt to convince oneself to take that definitive step as you hover at the edge of a decision. I think it is a very potent poem.