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so i'll put here all my poems
some of them aren't ready yet but i think this would be a good way to share how i feel and maybe you guys will also like them. hopefully someday they'll become a little poetry book. i mostly write in my mother tongue but also in english
mun rakas s, if you ever happen to read this, know that i still love you and i could write poems about you forever
thank you @Arie3 and @KKNastiaaa for the idea and encouragement
if it was like you told me,
that you didnt love me
not fully, not like i did
then why
why is it so different now?
what changed to you?
now i just am aware of how you felt
and we're not in a relationship
my heart is broken into million pieces
and i have to relearn everything
thats it
but why
why do you seem so different?
it wasnt anything new
why are you so cold and distance yourself?
away from me
dont you ever understand i need you now
it's like a dream i never fully woke up
not sure if i ever slept, now that i think of it
i wonder if i just dreamt our love
walked through her pages
as a new side character, that band-aid kind of
or did we write the love together
all the shared moments, precious little things
the endless laughters and the tears
the butterflies, the smiles, the kisses
the cuddles, the missing and the following excitement
it's scary to admit how much of me stayed in that very dear dream of mine
the stories, they always have a beginning,
a middle part where the story is full of life
and then, the end
don't worry, even if the ink runs out for a while
there still could be sequels in the future
hopefully a whole series, who knows
but when is the right time to let the chapther and story be the last one
in the end, whatever happens, the words stay there
on the pages and in the minds
they're always there
keeping you company and warming your heart
reminding how beautiful it can be, that there is hope
they keep living their lives no matter what
and there you are again
appearing as waves of realisation
the sudden worry, the longing, the craving
hengitys vaikeutuu, muuttuu raskaaks
breeeeaatheeeee
yy, kaa, koo, nee, vii, kuu, see
again
yy, kaa, koo, nee, vii, kuu, see
hyvä
welcome back fear and sadness
rakkaat vanhat ystäväni
that already feel comforting, so familiar
raskaalta raa'alta todellisuudelta
tell me is it real
choose the tea instead
get rid of these colors
buy more light clothes
preferably dresses
study biology
watch the scifi movies
move to sweden
cook more instead of baking
talk to people
use your voice, be loud and confident
get a gym membership
start eating meat
eat porridge
go shopping instead of art galleries
sleep on your back
change your hair and your routines
kiss a boy, the blond one
have the lights on
go to sleep early
play video games
stop writing poems
never read again
well, i guess its hard afterall
to kill the hope for better
you see, i have patience and love
maybe too much but really,
what difference does it make
i've had so many dreams lately
about your smile and your night-sky eyes
reuniting with my person
and having heartfelt deep conversations
at our new favorite cafe and under the starry sky
could that be ours someday?
do you remember how we used to dream?
watching the northern lights,
building a treehouse,
going to concerts,
stargazing,
the flower bouquet
running away together, seeing the world
trying new different foods but also the old, comfortable favorites
they all feel so real and so warm
i wonder if you have them also