You and Me - Poem by Bunny

hi,

TW///abuse, end of life.///

this is a poem that i wrote because .... well... i'm near the end of my journey and sitting in this hospital knowing some day i might not wake up or something might happend to me. and .... well my own family failed to protect me, but abuse me. its just a really rough draft of a poem so dont judge.... so here it goes...

You and Me - Bunny

imagine if you... 

 Opened the door to life, and  i stepped inside it.

 Held me in your arms, and the fire in my heart was ignited.

You whispered promises into my ears, and cleared all my fears.

Or held my hand in the difficult times, and wiped away my tears. 

Showed me the world in a new light, and taught me how to fight. 

Loved me, because I would never stop loving you. 

But instead...

you held the key, and i was the lock. 

you held the life, and i was the slave. 

you pulled the strings, and try as i might to close my eyes and convince myself it was all a nightmare just to save my love for you.

but you can't wash away reality or it might just break you.

you opened your heart, and i poured my love for you. every drop. every ounce. 

and I would do anything to take it away because my sins, once clean can never be washed away. 

I just hid behind your smiles and defended your empty lies. 

you break the heart, and it shatters to pieces. piece by piece. 

you poison the soul, and it rots and dies down. slowly.

you lead the mind, and i was the prisoner to it. 

Convinced me with lies and cover it with a cover of promises and statements. 

like the one i hate the most. 

"I love you" - just the 3 words that we crave to hear most of our life, but your love hurts me.

and when he left the world, you just found more reasons to hurt me. 

and as you fall, you drag me down with you and everyone else too.

and now i'm near the end of this ever-lasting journey.... 

its not surprise you regret everything now so i don't reveal the disgusting truth before i go.

in the midst of all humans, it was me. it was I you chose. 

your daughter. 

to beat and slam against the wall, and to throw across the room and let her fall.

you always did the same thing. 

and if i was anything, 

i was just a useless doll to you. 

i loved you.