I thought i was healing - poem

I thought i was healing

The scars were fading

I thought i was healing

But the pain wasnt ending

I thought i was healing

Im not hurting myself anymore

I thought i was healing

But the tears were still flowing

The world was still rumbling

I thought i was healing

The harm wasnt visible

The lack of eating still in the shadows

The endless crashing at night time

I thought i was healing 

But it was all physical

I thought i was healing

I felt okay in the day

I thought i was healing

I felt okay when i was outside

I thought i was healing

But i never was