I'm like two people
Can anyone else relate to this? I haven't been diagnosed as anything but (rule out) schizophrenic. That basically means they suspect it, but it's not a formal diagnosis.
I've had a voice, not my own, speak into my mind at certain parts of my life and it never had anything good to say. I've also had a couple of instances where I did something and was dissociated enough that I wasn't present in mind, and could only remember aspects that seemed like a dream.
Most of that hasn't happened for a while, but I feel like two people. One who wants to be responsible, work towards things, stay sincere, and invest my time and energy in home life. The other one just wants to keep people at a certain distance, just wants to go out and explore, wants to be promiscuous, and sees more negatives in the people close to me. I mean, it's still my mind, and I'm remembering all of this, but whichever side I am at the moment, I feel disgusted about the other side. I think a lot of it has to do with how I really don't have a sense of security whatsoever.
@Torean
Hi, that sounds pretty challenging having two different versions of you with competing goals/perspectives. That makes sense that if they want opposite things, whatever side you're not identifying with would feel disgusting at that moment.
What initially popped into my head when I was reading what you wrote was dissociative disorders. I've chatted in the past with people who have trauma-related dissociation. In some more extreme cases, it's like there's completely separate personalities and things done in one part might not be remembered by a different part. But dissociation is a spectrum and in less extreme cases, it might be that things are fragmented/split but it's not quite as severe--it still feels like parts/aspects of a single person and there isn't memory loss between the different parts.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Other_specified_dissociative_disorder#OSDD_type_1
Possibly someone in the Trauma Support community might have insights or shared experiences:
https://www.7cups.com/forum/trauma/DissociationRelatedDisorders_2335/
That's a good point about the dissociation. It's clear that's truly happened to me before, but it seems like it could be happening on a less extreme level, but on an ongoing basis. Thanks for your take on it!
What you did and how you resolve this ?
I definitely haven't resolved it. I think the biggest helps for me have been figuring out a lot of things that I can make slow progress on. If I'm bettering myself, I do a lot better with it. Getting pets, and spending more time with people around me helped too.
@torean
Hi i am ab,
I share some thoughts,
Oh well done, you doing better, all the best keep doing. (Slow progress can be better than rapid.)💐👌
I will try this spending time with people around me.
I think this actions also help you
1) littlebit of exersise everyday (minmum 2 min to maximum as per your condition but dont do in exess, benifit in moderation.)
2) take breaks, gap between work, have some space and time to be relax.
3) Learn from the reality.
You can Share your thoughts and experience.
I also facing too. Two diffrent kind of peoples in mind, conflicting and opposing thoughts, confusion unstability🤔.
I am still facing and seeing , I want to know the cause of it and i want to understand this is whay and what happen to us.
All the best, we can find and address the problems root cause.
Mine is mostly due to trauma, I know that much. Or the trauma made it a lot worse. You never really get over trauma. I think what helped me the most with that is writing it out in the form of poetry. I kept getting better at expressing things until I just got bored of my own inner issues. It helped me express a lot of other stuff too
I'm actually facing this. We're so similar lol. I think this happens to me because I'm trying to adapt myself in adulting, and I make different alter egos. I have different versions of me having different perceptions and they're so contrasting. That makes me socially anxious and awkward and makes me hard to open my heart to people. I get so many voices inside my head, and sometimes it's a battlefield and that makes me into negative thinking and overthinking. I'm so complicated 💔
@Torean awww hugs you tightly ❤ I hear things and have dissociated once for about a week. I'm not schizophrenic though. So I really don't know. However you have nothing to be disgusted about, mental health and the mind is not a easy thing to deal with it learn to live alongside with. Just be you, whatever you is on that day, cause you are perfect ❤
and yeah I'm not great at advice, sorry
That's perfectly good advice actually ❤️ it's definitely comforting. I'm far from perfect though 😅
