bpd; out of therapy
any borderline here who had started therapy for a while then was forced out of therapy/couldn't afford it anymore?
I'm a teen diagnosed with BPD. I was in therapy for a little over a year but my therapist had to leave the country for personal reasons, leaving me out of therapy for a while until I can be redirected to a new therapist (or so I thought.) It has been over two months. I can't afford therapy anymore.
I was curious if anyone else had experienced something like this before, and if so, how did it change reality for you? I know for me it made everything a lot harder to deal with. My bpd episodes are getting worse, and I find myself dissociating way more frequently.
I would love to hear everyone's thoughts. :)
@ve3ciel I'm sorry to hear that you've been struggling with your BPD symptoms and you have been unable to afford therapy.
I strongly encourage you to take a look at this post to learn about low-cost treatment options and available (free) peer support groups.
I also reccomend using our subcommunity as a resource! We host weekly scheduled discussions.
You can find all the most recent information about upcoming groups:
here for fascilitated discussion groups and here for open-sharing groups.
@StarlitSky4762
thank you for your reply! I appreciate it. I will be sure to further look into the linked resources! Although about the discussions, I don't see any upcoming ones for teens haha, would love if it were active over here. thanks again! :)
@ve3ciel We have some adult-teen listeners on our team.
@
competentParadise6344 and @
azuladragon34 is this something you can do?
We also have a Teen Listener on our team: @
Fireskye13
Hey hey hey!! First of all, I love the Howl profile pic; he is the BPD king. I'm a fellow teen and listener with BPD. If you want to reach out to me, I would love to get to know you and understand your unique experience better. You deserve all the support you can get, and I know that BPD can be so misunderstood, so if not me, I recommend looking for a listener with it because that lived experience can make such a difference.
I know what it's like not to have access to therapy when the episodes get rough, and it can be one of the most painful things. I'm sorry you have to deal with it, but I'm also confident that you can find ways to cope and make it through. Keep talking to others, putting in the effort, and showing yourself love.❤️ You got this!!
@drearienne
hello there! :)
First of all, thank you so much for taking from your time to reply, I genuinely appreciate it. Secondly, I'm terribly sorry that you have to struggle with the horrible, horrible pain that is bpd. It's not easy to live with at all. It's really stigmatized and often misunderstood.
As you mentioned, finding a listener who also struggles with bpd can make a huge difference, especially since a lived experience can give you a close perspective or the ability to understand a pwbpd and relate to them on another level. But it's also not easy to find a teen listener who has experience with bpd on here, so thank you for being willing to help! :)
The episodes are painfully hard to deal with. It gets really overwhelming especially with everything else going on in my life right now. I would love to talk more about this privately in dms. I love sharing experiences with other pwbpd, and connecting with them. It makes me feel understood, and less alone. I'm sure you can relate hehe. Thank you again for offering to help, it's really appreciated. I hope you're having wonderful day/night! <3
Of course, and thank you for taking the time to leave me such a detailed response. Yes, we BPD babes are few and far between, but there are BPD communities out there. Besides the lovely community that is 7 Cups, I've found success meeting others through Twitter and Reddit. I love hearing new stories and helping in any way I can, so hit me up if you want to chat!
I know you're experiencing dissociation, and one of the ways I find effective coping with this is practicing grounding through body mapping/body scans. I know that may have just sounded like "words words words" if you don't know what I'm talking about, so feel free to DM me for a more detailed explanation. Feeling present in your body helps manage the infamous BPD mood swings better, as you can take your emotions as they come rather than being detached from them and having them build up.
As with any other difficult time in life, practicing gratitude for the things you do have can also help you find self-love (which is hecka important when experiencing invalidating things like not having access to therapy). Totally recommend that too. You can and will get through this!
I’m glad that you were able to find BPD communities on Reddit and Twitter! I feel like the more I interact with others like me, the better I understand myself in a way. Some of the things that I do just don’t make any sense, but when I find other pwbpd experiencing the same thing I feel validated somehow. I just googled body scans, it looks interesting! I should definitely start doing meditation more, I forget how good it feels sometimes. Mindfulness was a huge part of therapy for me, I kind of stopped doing these type of exercises after getting out of therapy. And practicing gratitude is something I’ll have to start doing eventually, it’s definitely easy to take things for granted which is not very good haha. Thank you so much! (: <3
No problem, I'm glad to help. Message me if you ever need to talk along the way, and good luck!