Too overwhelmed to even think about anything
I got to a point that I try to talk or chat in groups or with listener and I can't do it. Things got far more than I can handle.. I really can't cope so I just block any thoughts. Sometimes I try to force myself but I can't focus on just a few problems at a time. . I'm all over the place so I just give up trying. I would think things can't get worse but they did. Over and over until there's too little left. I worked hard all my life to be without friends, family, home, health , work. It's not that I'm stuck. What's the point of getting unstuck?
@kindTurtle3738. It sounds like you feel super overwhelmed and don't even know where to start processing your thoughts. Does that sound right? I felt like that a while back and made an appointment with my doctor. I started on an anxiety med, and while it doesn't fix my problems, it allows my thoughts to move a little slower so I can work through them just a little bit easier. Have you ever considered trying medication? I know it all seems hopeless. I have been there. But it really can get better πππ
I'm on a few medications. One is a strong anti anxiety med which has helped me for when I'm having my most difficult times. I think these meds are why I can stop overwhelming myself w thoughts. I'm thankful that My doctor never gives me a hard time like I hear others do, about it being addicting. Knowing my situations, she understands that the good they do outweigh any risks. I'm also careful cause I know how bad I need them to help me so I don't risk building a tolerance to them. Good advice... Thank you
Thinking back just 2 months ago,,,,,,,,oh wow. It got so much worse.. My dog/bestfriend killed by vehicle few weeks ago I had Suge since 1916, When my downfall started. Jealous older sister blackmailing mom and oldest brother to offer their alligiance to only her. Now they can't have anything To do with me. I called my mom . Since my dad's "suicide" I lost my mom. I had a stroke and lost our temp shelter: a camper sold from under us. since sister stole our home...all we ever owned. Lived outside for months while very ill . 2 weeks ago I had chance to see old friend. I accepted her offer to stay. I Went to car to tell son to pick me up n couple hrs. Next, I died for almost 5 min before cpr by passerby. I was Taken inside. Soon my Seizures started so friend called ambulance. Next morning Im discharged. I Go to friends to get my things and found out my friend died of fentanyl overdose. I had nothing in system. Fentanyl,, I was told , the detectives could test me for, not hospital. . I feel a new rock bottom. My brain has some damage I pray I get back . I had a few kind things happen that I found hope to push a little further. All hope is on one more possible way out. Sure would take any prayers or good wishes.
All my prayers and good wishes to you. ππππ