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crimsonPlane2738
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PathStep 4 Compassion hearts45 Forum posts9 Forum upvotes22 Current upvotes22 Age GroupAdult Last activeJune, 2023 Member sinceOctober 4, 2018
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Why couldn't he just keep lovin' me? He was all I had. 😓
Relationship Stress / by crimsonPlane2738
Last post
 December 21st, 2022
...See more I miss him, everyday. Every single time I stop and realice, he's not here anymore. And maybe he will never be here again. Specially when I'm happy, or things seem to go well. That's when it hits me the most. 💔
Is so hard having BPD 😓
Personality Disorders Support / by crimsonPlane2738
Last post
 January 5th, 2023
...See more I've had BPD probably all my life, but was not until a year or two ago that I got officially diagnosed, my family thought it was depression, until I actually tried to k.ll myself twice. I've been reading, and watching several youtube videos on BPD and found out that it was a very common disorder among many people, that have survived sexual or physical abuse on childhood. I've been through both, and of course emotional neglect too. The way that I learned to deal with the stress was through sex and porn. And things have gotten very blurred and dark in there, leading me to a severe depression, since I was adolescent, until now, like 10 years of depression... But things have just begun to get even harder, after getting out from school, and going into college. The stress was so high, that these last 5 years of my life, got totally wasted, like nothing. Moving from relationship to relationship, failure through failure, more and more depressed. Reaching to a point that I don't even want to fight anymore, and if I keep living is only due to Inertia, that I just can't or wont k.ll myself. Even when I want to. Friends? None. Love? Sick, real sick, like... toxic. Family? Also sick, I only have my mom, and suspect she has BPD too, so, it really doesn't help at all. Being ME against the world... and even worse, ME against MYSELF... my own worst enemy. I have nothing left to say but, man is so hard. To live this way. 😪😪😪
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Newbie Hub / by crimsonPlane2738
Last post
 December 1st, 2022
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