Sooo What Now
Im kind of in this like crossroads where, I’m doing better but I cant seem to find work cus I need a car. And I cant seem to get a car cus I’m afraid of driving.. idk maybe I’m making excuses. But im anxious, I know what I need to do but I keep finding ways around it for whatever reason. I wont be seeing my therapist this week, personal reasons. Its like Im waiting for life to just hand me the tools to move forward but I know thats not how it works… lord. Im so alone in this. I gave up on this place cus like.. it helped as much as it could and idk this place wont get me a decent job or get me where I want to be. ItS a place I come to complain about things I know are in my control. It doesn’t make me feel better tbh it just kind of gets the thought out on a differ platform.. bruh. Is there a way to turn off the simulation. Aliens hurry up and end the planet. Cus life seems pointless and Ive learned enough, why do I have to continue to buy a home and pay bills.. what good does the do for anyone after we die. Seems redundant.. and now I’m blabbing cus Im trying not feel bad about my lack of interest in financial success.. jesus lplus America sucks