So Confused!
Nobody seems to think I have borderline and yet I truly think I do. I'm terrified of abandonment and change my personality to meet others expectations. I wouldn't consider myself super impulsive, but I do SH and purge. I struggle with suidal ideation off and on and have had one attempt. I feel crazy. I get so angry, sad, and anxious. I have panic attacks sometimes because it all gets to overwhelming. I also get irritated by weird things like people touching me or certain sounds make me want to cuss someone out (I don't think I ever would though). I feel emotionally exhausted and unstable. I also experience derealization/depersonalization where I just feel numb and empty. I have many "friends" but none close. I only tell people this deep stuff when I have a crush on them. Could I possibly have BPD?
@supportivePanda99 I would really consult a different doctor about this and get a second opinion. A lot of doctors refuse to diagnose people or medicate them or the like just because they might not see it or take it seriously. If you get a second opinion and they still don't think you have Borderline/BPD then maybe look at what you struggle with from a different perspective and see if it could be something more than a mental illness, but just a personal issue that needs to be addressed etc.
@supportivePanda99
This really hit close to home for me! I think so many people are eager to say "you don't have this illness, or that..." because the symptoms of BPD are in many ways non-specific and could easily be generalized to the public. It is often coined a "waste basket diagnosis" in memoirs or psych literature due to this. Although anyone who lives with the disorder will tell you it IS specific, rapidly changing, and extremely intense. I can also agree with the fact that psychiatry has been fast moving especially over the past ten years and it can become almost impossible to find the good practitioners. The ones who will actually offer support rather than just slap you with a confusing label or medication and send you on your merry way. As someone who works in the field of mental health, I can tell you that sometimes it feels like we are getting very far away from the heart of the matter and leaning heavily on quick and controversial fixes. I can completely relate to your sharing and hope that you find continued support and online friendship here on 7 Cups. 
You are not alone.
