Should I do Therapy?
Hello,
Im 22. I have been diagnosed with Borderline personality disorder and Panic disorder for a bit over a year now, but I was struggling with both for much longer than that.
I had only few appointments with my psychiatrist before he left the country and went away to work somewhere else.
After that I found it difficult to push myself to go see another psychiatrist or psychologist, especially that my family are very unsupportive (and I dont really have friends from whom I would get support)
The few appointments I had with my psychiatrist were really helpful and helped me gain insight, however i am having doubts of weather I can trust (and open up to) another psychiatrist and if they would be able to help me.
Ive been reading a lot about BPD which is helping me to improve the quality of my life but I still feel the need to go talk to someone who understands, but yet again I keep thinking if what people are saying is right, that i dont need therapy.
Maybe I can just help myself?
Maybe the therapist wont be able to help me?
What should I do? Stick to reading books about BPD and helping myself or ask for a therapist help too?
@Bananapowerxxx I'm glad you felt your appointments with the psychiatrist were helpful, and when we can't see a professional we feel good with anymore - it can be hard. It's hard opening up, so when we lose that person we felt comfortable with, it's difficult. And we may feel we can't find another one we feel good with. Sorry to hear you don't feel your family is supportive, that's not helpful and we all needs someone in our life that understand, that can be there and let us say how we're feeling without judgement. That's really important, and you deserve that someone! 
Also: people around us can have their own opinion about how we're feeling and what we need, but that doesn't mean they are 100% right. We have a last say in what we need and how we feel, because we experience it first hand, and not them. It can be easy to follow what they say we need, but remember they're giving an opinion. And that opinion can be made without knowing everything from your side. If you feel you need therapy, that's important. They may have their reasons to say you don't need, as you have your reasons to say you need - and your reasons matter as well!
With that being said, I understand those fears and doubts about trying therapy. And it's okay, you can take some time to figure out, go slowly. For example: If you have doubts about finding someone that could understand you, you can try making a research on therapists specialized in BPD where you live. And if you find one you feel can help you, you can try and schedule an appointment to discuss this: saying everything you said here, so they'll have an idea of what's on your mind at the time. Sometimes what we need is to give it a try when we feel ready, and then see how it worked out for us.
As someone who is seeing a therapist and reading books, doing both can help. It's good you're being proactive, reading, figuring out your own way. Seems you just need that place where you can get that support you need, maybe share how the reading is going, etc. Meanwhile, if you don't have a listener you usually talk to, that can help as well in feeling better at opening up.
(Sorry for the long reply, seems I had a lot to say on the subject!)
