Poem about BPD
This is sort of a vent. I wrote this poem about living with BPD. Writing's kind of an outlet for me and idk maybe you guys relate and find some sort of solace in it being put into words.
just so hard
I’m puzzle pieces, it’s what I am
I’m scattered wide, it’s a disease and,
I search for myself, but it seems that I can’t reach it
It’s no ones fault it’s just my terrible condition.
And I’ve been thinking,
I want to be a better person, better me and
Deep down I know the person who I want to be but,
My mind finds ways to make me feel like I am sinking.
Oh I long for this sorrow to be gone
To forgive myself from wrongs
Why is that always so hard?
Just so hard and
Oh I hope this is something fixable
Cause I don’t want to be discarded
But oh it’s always just so hard
I crave the peace to,
Quiet the noise, and find my joys
Just like I used to
But doubts and fears they’re always here
So it’s hard to do so
And part of me is gone it’s somewhere lost, out of view
I feel lost like,
A ship without a home, it’s always cold from no light
I always feel alone but I act like I’m alright
So I just let everything out when it turns midnight
Oh I’ve been, in fight or flight for way too long
Been dodging over cannonballs
And no one sees that that is hard
Just so hard and
Oh I know this ways barley liveable
And at times indescribable
And oh it’s always just so hard
Just so hard
I’ve been sleeping,
Way to little but at least I’m back to eating
Insecurities all over make me weak and
I hope someday I can make friends and keep them
But oh it’s just so hard
Just so hard
@vera08 this poem shows that you feel very vulnerable to abandonment whether it’s really there from the individual or not. You feel a lot of pain and I thank you for sharing your experience with us 💜
@vera08
Thank for sharing this poem on here. As someone who also has had problems with BPD I can definitely relate. And in general the way this poem was written might seem simple but is very moving and really make the reader feel the emotions of the words.