My diagnosis

Hi guys my name is Rachael I'm 23 and I'm from northern Ireland I thought this would be my first step with my medication and reaching out to different people' in similar situations about mental health and my story. I grew up with a very traumatic child hood dad was never around he hit my mum we ended up in foster care because my mum turned into an alcoholic growing up I always had issues with self esteem and body image and feelings of sadness didn't know why. I always found it hard to make friends my weight was constantly criticized when I was 13 I developed anorexia and self harm and never really was a reason why until I reached the age of 17 and got a diagnosis of borderline personality disorder. I got diagnosed sertraline and propanol for my moods and for helping me with my anxiety and sleep, as I find it very hard to sleep. I've gone through very troubled relationships I was physically abused by my last boyfriend who cheated on me and had a baby with another girl... Then I met the guy I'm with now he's honestly a king but the problem is I get angry and upset because of my emotions and I don't want to lose him because of the stuff I've gone through in the past , I came on here to see if anyone else can relate to me and have gone through something similar I've a real rocky relationship with my brother's and mum because I get so paranoid and upset and think everyone is out to get me when they aren't then we end up fighting because my two brothers are special needs they don't understand what I'm going through , life is hard but if you reach out it' always helps. Much love to everyone 💗