Living with bpd🤔

@diamondintheROUGH2022 not knowing how it's going to be can be unnerving. Can lead to a lot of worrying too. Sounds like you have been putting a lot of effort into living the sort of life you want and don't want it to go to waste, which is fair.

I don't think you go back to square one at all. You learn from each of these experiences. Even when it comes crashing down and you feel like it is just like before, you're still learning. The learning continues as long as you have the intention and willingness to take initiative to make things better. There will be ups and downs in making things better, as generally is, but it will be worth it, I believe. Wishing you a good day :)

@diamondintheROUGH2022

Hi, that makes a lot of sense. 💜 It all feels really unstable because you wake up and have no idea what kind of day you're going to have. Is it going to be a good day? Or a day where there are all kinds of painful feelings, difficult fights with people around you, and not being able to do things you want to do?

It's also hard knowing that if those feelings occur, there's a risk of that accidentally undoing the good things you were able to create through a lot of hard work.

And then I guess on top of all of those feelings, the thing that makes it even harder is that there's all of this judgment (from other people, from yourself) about having those feelings. "If I feel this way, there's something wrong with me. If I share how I'm feeling, it's going to cause problems and everyone is going to reject me."

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It felt so good reading your reply why idk just feeling like you understand exactly where I was coming from in my post thank you for reply and I'll be reaching out have a great day thanks for caring

@diamondintheROUGH2022

Glad to hear that it felt like I was following what you were saying 💜

Hey I definitely felt all of this. I’m currently dealing with the same thing now. If you need to talk. I need a sounding board as well.

@Tattootink

Hey message me any time we can vibe it all out together I'm always here to listen or help what ever you need

Omg I completely know how this feels. It was like it was me writing down everything that you just said. Just know you aren't the only one going through something like this. I live with BPD as well and it's incredibly difficult. If you want to reach out and chat, I'm totally here for you

Omg yes I need more people to connect with who have bpd because I seriously feel so alone and literally have no one but my boyfriend who gets to deal with l the emotions and my 12 month old who I adore I have no friends any more since getting clean message me I'm not sure how to