How Do I Trust Someone Again?
Hello, I was diagnosed with BPD two years ago but didn't get the proper help for it. Throughout my life I've been through emotional and sexual abuse from almost everyone who I let into my heart. I'm 20 now and I'm terrified of everyone who tries to be my friend. If they say or do anything good for me, I jump to the conclusion that they want to eventually use and hurt me. So, I've been pushing everyone away. I know it's false thinking but it feels so real. My empathy just turns off and I have a break down. Even the friends and family I still am close with fall victim to this and they call me out on it. How do I cope with this? What can I do to not be so afraid anymore? Should I get professional help? Thank you for listening.
@Tage What happens when you do try to open up to the people you're close to?
@YellowComfort
I get panic attacks or grow apathetic because I believe their intentions are malicious.
@Tage I understand. My mom and I have had and still do have some communication issues where I try to clam up. Over the years, we've managed to both improve some. I try to talk more, and she tries to be more understanding. It's not perfect, certainly, but it helps a lot for us to know we'll try.