Disappointed in myself.
I'm just so tired of going through this cycle over and over. I keep self sabotaging myself by taking payment from debit cards at work when I'm not supposed to (its not part of our policy) but to avoid confrontation I do it.. I've had some bad confrontations so being that I was nervous before I'm even more nervous now to deal with the confrontation. I know jobs are like that but I feel like an idiot when I do this because it could cost me the job. I feel like I can't really tell anyone because I am breaking the rules, it is my fault. It's frustrating because when I do make these "Mistakes" they become intrusive thoughts later and keep me up at night, keep me stressed and upset. I just feel like I could be doing a better job in general, at work and at home..